LAST LEAF
Last leaf falling from the twiggered arms
of wintered
tree, riding soulful, senseless,
down to waiting
ground; dried breath of
seasons,
crinkled edge and colour dying,
so do we all,
follow, in slow, descending
footsteps,
toward the beckoning grave,
into the bosom
of deathly night, where
the sun shines
brighter in that blackness,
and shuddering
forgetting takes hold, to
soothe the pain
of relentless years, and
to whisper
again, those songs we once
knew, and could
sing, but had forgotten.
The bard was s/he who wrote heroic poetry, as a way of making sense and meaning in the world and recording information for the future. It was a poetic pathway, often byway, which led the individual and the community forward into possible futures.
As the years pass, life presents more byways than pathways I
am finding, and this is an encouraging, a wandering into and through
experiences with a greater focus on the here and now than the projected future.
Perhaps that is because there is a shorter projected future, or perhaps it is
because in the last decades of life, we are called to wander, soften, maybe
even become lost in ways we would not and could not have allowed in our young
and middle years.
And yet the Self within feels the same, the compass remains true and it is only the outer scenery which changes and the stories that we tell ourselves about it.
And yet the Self within feels the same, the compass remains true and it is only the outer scenery which changes and the stories that we tell ourselves about it.
What is this constant sense of ‘I’? That feeling of being-ness
which is other than others, not necessarily separated but separate in the sense
of the individuality – not you, not that, not anything but I, even though, at
times, the I can become as one with you, that, or anything?